Hungry For More

This was a draft from a long time ago that I never posted.  But now's the time: I have found that whenever I am hungry for more of Him, more revelation, God always gives me more!

I've written this article many times in my mind, and never committed it to my blog. I can truthfully say, every time I've hungered for more of God in my life, God has given me more.

I grew up going to the church on Sundays. I was baptized as a baby, went through Catechism, and always believed in Jesus, that He was the Savior. I believed in the Trinity. But, Jesus was someone who lived all those years ago, and I spent my time wishing I had been born then so I could have known Him. I was hungry for Jesus, even though I believed in Him, and knew a lot of facts about Him.

One Sunday morning when I was 15, I woke up needing to get ready for church. But when I woke up, I actually felt the Presence of God in my room and all around me. It was so awesome, I didn't go to church, but stayed in bed as long as I could feel His presence. That made me hungry for more of God, although I didn't have that experience again until later in life.

After I was married, circumstances found me attending a Baptist Church. One of the Deacons there asked me if I knew I was going to Heaven when I died. My answer was, "I hope so". This resulted in my getting "born again" and knowing I am going to Heaven when I die. As a result of this experience Jesus became more real to me personally, and I spent hours studying the Bible, and God gave me revelation that both filled me, and made me hungry for more!

A few years later, I was doing a Bible Study at church on faith. I kept saying, I understand what faith is, but what IS faith? The more I learned, the more it seemed like there was more still to learn. I couldn't wrap my mind around it. I was hungry to know more about faith.

Shortly after that, we met some "Jesus People" who invited us to one of their meetings. Jim Durkin, the man who started "Gospel Outreach" in California was in town teaching on, yes you guessed it, faith! Wow! He actually explained faith, what it was and how to have it and develop it. I was filled and very excited. To this day, faith is still one of my life quests, to believe all of God's Word, to walk in faith in God's Word.

Another thing that happened at that meeting, I was filled with the Holy Spirit and the love of God like I hadn't experienced before. It was similar to what I experienced that Sunday when I was 15, but was more intense and real. This made me hungry for more! After that time, my quest became that the Kingdom of God would be more real to me than this world we live in.

A few years later, I read a book by Mark Virkler called Dialogue with God. This told me about journaling and how to hear God's voice, how to know when God was speaking to me. I learned to write down what He said, and believe, or have faith that I was hearing from God. This changed my life yet again, because God became more real to me than He had been before. I felt closer to God, and eventually I learned that I can converse with God at any time and all the time.

But, I was hungry for more. I wanted to understand and know the Word of God; I wanted revelation of God's Word. So, when I would study the Word, the Word became real to me in ways it hadn't before. God began to give me revelation of His Word, to show me things in the spirit, that I could only understand by the Holy Spirit. I learned to walk in the spirit, and see things in the spirit. I learned what it means to live in the spirit. And this filled a hungry place in me.

And still I hunger for more of God. I want to be filled with God. More of God, and less of me. And as I hunger for more, I know He will give me more and fill me more with Himself. I can say that the Kingdom of God is finally becoming more real to me than this world we live in. But there is always more of His Kingdom to know and explore.